I clean your room again
Prepare healthy meals
Hope you are able to grow up
Please be strong and man the fuck up
You are no princess
Fight for survival
Adore you,
Shivafeli
I clean your room again
Prepare healthy meals
Hope you are able to grow up
Please be strong and man the fuck up
You are no princess
Fight for survival
Adore you,
Shivafeli
Freedom is there for the one who waits for love
My shirt walks away from the place I belonged to
Or thought it belonged to
I became free when I turned from the place
Now I am laying in this bed
Taupe kind of grey if that is a color
My shirt is only slightly darker
In the bathroom I close the cabinet
I look in the mirror and for a split second see myself as how you see me
Beautiful
Inception yet again
The next time it closes it is you
A different kind of type
Shaved yet not bald
Not as your hairstyle is now
Not as I have ever layed in your bed
I wake up from a daydream
And think to myself that this dream was focused on an aspect different than lust
Not a thing I’m fond off
Predator no prey,
Shivafeli
You have to accept the face in thy mirror
The good fight and embrace your loss
Never alone for I know myself
Thy fists behold unfinished battles, from within yourself and every angel alive
Life itself tries to convince you that there is no meaning
They try to shut the angels in you
Figuring there is strength in walking away
The love I have for you will once reach you
It will find you in a gift
The devine supports me to work on myself
Before I am loving and kind to true love
For now dear, I desire to have one of your arms surrounding my upperhalf
You feel more like home than any house ever did
I desire the lust In your eyes, becoming one, to see I reflect in your eyes with a new possible outcome
Yet I restrain myself from anybody’s flesh except my own
Following desires has never lead to longtime success such as enrichment
I will have to feel love from within, a force than can not hold me back from making my way to the one I love
I do not want to only consume or to be consumed without losing the meaning of love
My hands behold my selfish desires
As much as I desire to set them free over your body
To allow your fingerprints everywhere
I can not seem to let go.. for I foresee damage conflicted upon thy heart which carries the world of goals
Greater things are ahead than love between two if my calculations are absolutely correct
Adore you,
Shivafeli
Vision is not resting
It can touch the dark things without consuming
Grasping onto a better life
These steps will destroy any opponent
I wish you would fight
Maybe I have to experience my first real fight
To show you all of the greatness you have inside yourself
Eight rounds of stamina
Effective through his guard
Destroy and points
Mostly destroy
Keep going, have to
Shivafeli
I fancy you for the word ‘pity’ is not in your vocabulary
Visualization of techniques have made me stronger and more technical
As sow, I therefore have visualized you
You and I sincerely without fangs
Many hours I have blocked you out of my mind
For you to return in the summer
I will bring my energy up on your mind so you can not block me away ever more than I block you
I will never leave your mind,
Shivafeli
I would like to see how the wolf boxes
The green painter increases speed with a different floortype
Mental secrets you have not fully shared
Our friendship has always been a relationship with intimate fights
I know there could be time in between us, a distance
Far away, one day you realize that the desire to dive deep down under in love is worth more than a hundred more faces
I will fight harder than any day before,
Shivafeli
There is still a thing left I want to do
It may take many years yet I will achieve
Many hours of practice, education
A new will pass through
I promise,
Shivafeli
A moment of reflection
I wonder if you experience feelings as love and friendship the same way
If we are not equal, this effort could be used for lasting phenomenal things
A full day without interactions
Would we both react the same?
Love as a cover for temporary lust
The map of love is blank in my mind
I adore you but I do not want to be consumed by you or live for you
My mind and thoughts are for my own, I do not share all my wisdom with you
A sentence unspoken, it is the sentence I keep to myself
Constriction for my life is perfect without “the other half”
I already see the white light and have found my passions in life
It is the remedy for the lazy in love,
Shivafeli
Glass is now melting ice
Pooring rain is making this trainride feel as a beautiful bubble of love
The strange noises I try to forget
I am here with the lord who loves me and comforts my soul
Babysteps
To achieve a wilder dream
It is alright to shyly await for your lover by walking away
An active dream for the dearest
My energy focused on the lord
He guides me step by step
It will be alright
Adore you,
Shivafeli
He was wearing sunglasses and still she could see his eyebrows raise for a split second. He noticed her blue eyes, light whitegreycoat and blond nor brown hair. Or that actually was what he saw. Her movement on her bicycle as she looked as a dear in headlights was in contrast with her appearance.
The first moment he layed eyes on her, she would never forget.
Her mind played this short clip at sudden unexpected moments in her life. Afraid to be run over by this silver fast car, she was shocked to see him driving as he did.
He was in his flashy car, the model he had dreamt about as a kid was an oldtimer. Only when time passed and he became famous his taste changed. Influenced by or wanting to influence the people around him.
A star can not be too approachable. He believes in the love he has for his path. His voice would reach her again and again. Yet she would not listen to his songs for two more years…